Thursday, March 26, 2009
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i dun like to be seen complaining here cuz i know there are people reading it and all. but yeah ): if you dun like complaints please stop reading NOW! ):
yeah, i know i suck and i really disappointed myself for junking the past 2days ): really really disappointed in myself. ):
today i had 2blocks of chocolate ): yeah, blocks. it's not because i'm upset that's why i'm turning to junking. please dun get it in that sense because it's not, and never will be. i tink it's because i've been trying to abstain from junks so much that i start aching for a taste of it. and when i get a taste of it, i cant stop ): this sucks. no more chocolates for me for the next 2weeks. fullstop. i'm gonna start eating in moderation from now on.! really.
and yeah,
i know i'm not suppose to but i cant help but keep comparing the church here with my home roots. ): i know it's stepping outta my comfort zone and all. but it's juz really different and i'm really not used to the "teachings" here. ): it's juz different ): i miss PK and PT ):
i guess it's because the life group "leaders" here are like pressing me to attend this Oceanic Convention at Phillip Island? it's a 3day 2night thing. but i'm not really keen on going because it's juz too expensive. they say there's gonna be teaching and like a getting to know you better when the rest of the life group more. well, for one, i know the teachings wont be as insightful as any of my pastors. ): and for two, most of the life group arent going!! ):
the only push factor i have for going iz to actually meet the life group, meet new people(?), and maybe to have a feel how a "camp" iz like small scale?
but i really dunno iz $200+ iz really worth it.
crabsticks ): i dunno if i'll even be committed to the church here as compared to back home ): i dunno if i want to be. ):<
and secondly, i had to take an initiative to approach people to find out when life group iz so that i can attend it. in a way when i tink of it, it's like when a new friend attends life once, and he/she disappears because there's no more contact with that person after that first contact.? ): it's sad to know that's the way things are. it's sad to know that sometimes this iz juz how things actually falls through. the turnover rate iz so high because of that loophole.
which really made me reflect.
so yeah, never limit your friends. unless you know them inside out and outside in, even if they show no interest during the first CG, it wouldnt harm to ask them again for the second time. who knows, maybe they show no interest at their first go because they juz feel uncomfortable like any other first time. who knows, maybe they really wanna go but noone asked so they didnt mention it.
who knows.
*throbs @20:30 <3
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